sometimes it is so annoying to have to deal with yourself. 24h a day. 7 days a week. 52 weeks a year. all this time, i am stuck with myself. no matter how i turn, my tail will always be behind. today i hardly left bed. being a combination of tired, sick and feeling empty i just pull the blanket over my head and hope that once i wake up again i will be a bit more inspired&cheerful.
sometimes i wish i could crawl out of my skin. i would leave it behind like a pile of woolen stockings in the corner. until i feel like crawling back in again. but even more often i feel like closing down my brain. pressing the mute button and being completely silent.
since i can’t do any of above, i just hide out in bed today. so long my friends.