i noticed today that when i am in the city, i am extremely prone to having mood swings. shifting drastically from feeling fine to feeling less fine. when trying to define why i feel like this, i came to these conclusions:
1. in the city, you are anonymous and exposed at the same time. there are so many people around you, but most of them are too busy rushing of to somewhere to really notice you. feeling lonely when you are not alone is so-so.
2. your main function in the city is being a consumer. my biggest challenge being here, is trying to avoid that.
3. there’s plenty of tasty sugar around. it seems logical that an overdose of sugars causes my energy to shoot sky high just to crash down the next second.
this week i am dreaming plenty about death. i guess that is one way to deal with the subject. this post is not meant to be heavy, i hope you can read between the lines..