the lilacs are blossoming. that’s about two months earlier than in sweden. and there it is a sign of summer. confusing times, confusing weather.
i am thinking of missing. having moved countries twice in life, i spend a lot of time missing. missing places, situations, language. but mainly missing people. sometimes it is nice to miss, just allowing yourself to get lost in nostalgia and fantasy. of how it would be to meet again. of how a person sound and smell. sometimes it gives you energy. cause you know at one point, you will be satisfied with the present of that person again.
these days i get to know a new kind of missing. the one which won’t be satisfied ever again. since the person you miss is not there anymore. i know it will feel different at one point. i will find a place for my emotions. until then i am learning new lessons.
to all my dear swedes and dutchies, i miss you!