it is colorful here today. i on the other hand feel like a pale shadow. except for my emotions, which have all different kinds of shades. i can’t seem to keep track on which day it is. or which month. and i have no clue what i did yesterday. perhaps it doesn’t matter. as long as i still remember my name. and i just told a friend of mine that i have a memory of an elephant. a very small elephant, that would be.