Wednesday, April 29, 2009

nine to five


premiere for summer dresses. i am boiling red beets instead of cleaning. can’t seem to know how or where to begin. this house is just such a mess. and not my mess. and different point of views. ruby says, bring your stuff, and then we are forced to fix the place. i say, lets fix the place, and then i am motivated to bring my stuff. wanting the same thing, but how to get there is what differs. anyone has any good advice?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009



painting, and cleaning, and planning. getting rid of that horrible bed. dusting away thousands of dead flies. closets. discussing. compromise. and eating bamba inbetween. i found this cherry bowl in a second hand store yesterday. goodnight.

Monday, April 27, 2009

little miss messy

first of all, when my house is beyond the cosy mess, and developed into a fullblown chaos, im starting to be bothered. very much so. i cant focus. i feel this control freak voice inside me wanting to organize. put away. even hide. quick!
today i stood in line at the american embassy for three hours in total. mostly just standing. at least i had good company, so we made silly games to make time pass. for security reasons, you cant enter with your bags or mobile phone, and of course they charge and arm and a leg for you to store it in those special lockers. they must make a fortune, simply on that little detail...insane in the membrain.
and then many hours of strolling in tel aviv. searching for fabrics for curtains. and such. a few second hand stores also caught my attention.
and strolling back home. sleeping heavily in the train. memorial evening soldiers.
all of this a little mess in my head. one of grannies secret pills and i am off to bed.


Sunday, April 26, 2009


i forgot my computer at rubys. so now i am blogging from this very antique but reliable thing. things look very different here...and work very different aswell.
nature is amazing. i just put a few seeds of basil into some pots and they are already sprouting little mini basil leaves. yesterday i saw a scorpion. huge. quite scary. for the rest> project cleaning my house, sorting out the wardrobe, getting prepared to move slowly but surely. or slowly and unsurely. something like that.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

grattis pappa!

mosaic pappa

världens bästa, finaste pappa fyller år idag. och inte är man där heller. älskar dig!

Friday, April 24, 2009


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we spent most of our time in kiev reading. enjoyable to have the time for it. i finished two books. yuko laughed loud and ate bacon crisps while reading.

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is spending time with yuko. we had a good time searching for restaurants in kiev, checking out the waitresses, reading&talking. lucky me.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

you can hardly call this cooking

i'm into bucatini right now. it is so nicely chewy. and this was so easy and tasty. chop chop. fresh spinach, sundried tomatoes, garlic, half a leftover tomatoe (usually against mixing fresh and sundried ones, this one simply had to be used), some grated goats cheese on top. et voila...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


picnic foot. there’s nothing like finishing work earlier than expected and having a picnic outside your home in the sun. tomorrow i will be in kiev. and back again on friday. my eco conscious is crying from all this flying…

fresh blood

yesterday i went to see a theater group with muslim, jewish and christian teenagers working and performing together. it was alot of fun! the first minutes i was remembered of teaching teenagers in the netherlands *they can be scary*, all their energy, all the issues connecting to identity, to their sexuality etc. but with all of that, this group seemed to have a warm bound to eachother that fascinated me.

after that we went to have pizza and drink beer *for a change, on a monday eve* and met a group of extremely interesting and sweet druze guys, happening to live in a marxistic community not far from here.  and instead of leaving for bed, we ended up having a long conversation about….capitalism, communism, integralism… my brain was on fire after that.

and now, getting ready for kiev. another little tour. but a short one. thank god. this is my soundtrack right now. while having coffee in the sun.

Monday, April 20, 2009

new adventure


picture borrowed from here

so, after almost 7 years of rollercoaster, forward and back, on and off, we are trying what has still not been tried>MOVING IN TOGETHER! this beloved lab rat relationship which has been through you name it, long distance, short distance, open relationship, monogamy, driving us up the wall one day and very enjoyable the next, is apparently still on! and with me standing with one foot in and the rest of me out for the last two years, i decided to step in.  we have experienced enough to know it won’t be a picnic, no peaches and cream so hold your thumbs, it can go either way!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Saturday, April 18, 2009

maybe like this things will seem different


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i woke up from a tickling sensation in my neck. tried to ignore it at first, sinking deeper into my cave of covers, but it kept tickling. so i reached my fingers to find out what is tickling me and found this huge bug stuck in my hair. so much for staying this whole day in bed. i took little mr. bug outside and started to water my garden.

Friday, April 17, 2009

things to do

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pickles simply cut some more or less crunchy kind of vegetables *cauliflower, bell peppers, carrots, swedish turnip etc*, one to two cloves of garlic, put all the pieces into a jar or a bottle *which should be clean properly before, i sometimes disinfect them with alcohol/put them in boiling water*, add quite some salt *a few tablespoons*, fill the container with water, make sure all the veggies are covered *for those who wish, you can add some vinegar aswell* make a ‘lid’ by pouring olive oil at the top, about one centimeter*

that’s more or less it. now simply let the container stand somewhere in a shady and not too hot place. after a week it can be a good idea to open the container and let the gas come out, close it again and wait for another two weeks or so.

pickles and beer is a unbeatable combination.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


is not the best of days. everything together is becoming a little mess in my little head.
and of course, i am creating all of it, all on my own.

i will get back with better inspiration another day.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

not there but here

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that was yesterday. today it is cooler again. with rain hanging in the air. i woke brutally early. and all those loose roots that have been standing around for months are put in soil, i have nothing more to plant right now. so i bake bread instead. *arabic both sounds and looks beautiful to me. i am seriously considering studying it again*


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

distractions -continuation

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today i transplanted the potato and the onion that was growing in the compost to my little garden. and i put tomatoes, chives, זוטא? (what is it called in english?) and some flowers into the ground aswell. it feels abit better while digging. and while sweating. and while crying. all at the same time. my neighbor once told me that gardening is a way better therapy than going to see a shrink. i guess he might be right.

Monday, April 13, 2009




taking pictures, planting avocados, doing doing, at least this distracts me. the side of our compost which is already filled is so happy that it started to grow onions and potatoes and something that might be the beginning of tomatoes, all on its own. i am considering the advice to dig the plants out and put them into soil. this is my fourth tryout in the last few months to grow an avocado  pit. i hope it will work this time. sun is shining. it might help.


i have so many emotions running through my body and i am trying to understand them, give them their space, divide them into separate boxes. it is quite amazing to see that every time i experience such a thunderstorm of emotions, i am so close to panicking. wanting to act upon them, running around like a hamster in it’s wheel. instead of giving them enough time to be felt and experienced. oh it is hard.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

still life

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life goes on. things happen. everyday something else. oh well.

Saturday, April 11, 2009


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im having coffee and candy for breakfast. and now i am going to bed with my dry nose. i am tired. bye.


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it is funny to spin the camera while shooting. yes it is. and it is fun to be blogging again. sort of therapeutic business. arranging your impressions or something.

the apple from the tree and such

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i wish for a time machine again. i feel slightly torn between different places on earth right now. why aren’t you closer?

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

greeny springy



family breakfast in the sun and spring flowers. lovely stuff all of it! glad påsk, happy passover&easter,חג סמח

not that i really care of either.

du saknas oss

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fru a, yes you do! but for when you come, we already have figured out how to open my (very comfortable) fold out couch. and pappa found companions in a similar age for little h. come!!!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

saturday night soundtrack

if eggs are old


do they smell bad then? (i just know one way to check if eggs are too old, which is to see if they float in a bowl of water. are there any other ways?)

Friday, April 3, 2009

Thursday, April 2, 2009

homemade granola

IMG_3912 IMG_3924 IMG_3925 actually very easy to make. i used only organic ingredients. still, it turns out cheaper than buying it.

this is what i used: *a few cups of oatmeal (lets say 5-6), *2 cups of nuts ( i used walnuts and pecans)*1-2 cups of seeds (sesame and pumpkin seeds in my case),*1-2 cups of puffed quinoa,*1 cup of coconut flakes,*one cup of raisins (or other dried fruits).*one teaspoon of cinnamon *1/2 cup of canola oil,*almost one cup of hot water, *almost one cup of honey.

*first, mix all the dry ingredients in a bowl. (except for the raisins)

*secondly,mix all the wet stuff in another bowl.

*pour it over the dry stuff, mix until it blended well.

*spread the mixture on to two baking plates.

* bake it in the oven, in 150 degrees, for about half an hour.( i did take the plates out to mix the granola a few times. i also alternated their place in the oven a few times.) anyhow, at one point you can see that the granola is toasted. then take it out, and let it cool before you add any dried fruits. then keep it in a well sealed container.

c’est tout! very simple, very tasty…